I turned 18 recently. Something doesn’t feel right.
Everything is okay — there aren’t any major problems happening. But… nothing good is happening either. It’s like I’m stuck in the middle with no clear direction.
I don’t know, maybe it’s just a phase. A period of time I have to go through. Maybe after some time, things will start to feel normal again.
I’m bored of everything. I’m preparing for exams, and my marks are also perfect. But I feel nothing. It’s strange because I thought I would feel proud or excited, but I just don’t.
Fear of Growing Up and Adulting Anxiety
I’m scared of aging. I don’t want to be 19 or 20. I still feel like a kid, even though I now have so many responsibilities. Sometimes, it feels like being an adult is something far away and hard to understand.
When I was 17, I was also afraid of turning 18. On my birthday, I wasn’t happy. I didn’t want to become an adult. It felt like losing a part of myself.
Now I am one — even though I never asked for it. Time flies, and there’s nothing we can do about it. Sometimes I wish I could pause everything and stay young a little longer.
Maybe I should do some research and find new hobbies that bring me joy again. Something fresh and exciting to look forward to.
Losing Passion: When Hobbies No Longer Feel Fun
I used to love watching movies, playing video games, and following TV series. They were my favorite ways to relax and enjoy my free time.
But now? I don’t feel like watching or playing anything anymore. It’s like nothing can catch my attention or make me happy.
I even stopped watching Succession, even though it was one of my top favorites. I used to look forward to every new episode, but now I don’t care much.
I always enjoyed story-based video games. But recently, the only thing I enjoy is listening to music. Music feels different — it reaches me in a way other things don’t.
There’s a song called “Let Down” by Radiohead — and it kind of captures exactly how I feel right now. It’s like the song understands the emptiness inside me.
Final Thoughts: Navigating Emptiness in Your Late Teens
Feeling empty or directionless in your late teens is more common than most people admit. You’re not alone if you’re 18 and feeling lost, disconnected, or afraid of growing up.
This time in life can be confusing and difficult. You might feel pressure to know what to do next, but it’s okay if you don’t have all the answers right now.
Sometimes, talking about it — even through writing — can help. Sharing your feelings can make them easier to understand and deal with.
Maybe this phase will pass. Maybe discovering something new — even something small — could spark a feeling again. It’s important to be patient with yourself and keep looking for little things that bring you joy.
Remember, growing up doesn’t happen all at once. It’s a slow process, and it’s okay to take your time.
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